Dear Friends,
This week I learned something that was very hard to swallow. Well, I suppose it wasn't as if it came as a drastic surprise, but rather I have been refusing to acknowledge the truth. You see, these past two-ish weeks have been very hard for me. I have felt abandon and unimportant. It appeared to me like everyone I knew and loved had something way more important to deal with, and therefore they didn't have the time of day to even notice how hurt I was. However, the real issue was not their lack of loving support, but rather my over dependence in humans. All my trust and dependence ought to be in God my Father! Not my family or friends...
This is something I have struggled greatly with all my life. I desperately seek affirmation and attention from people rather than God. Perhaps you may find this surprising, but the truth is I have a low self esteem. Very low at times. I struggle with my worth over the littlest of things. But my worth is in my Savior who bought me with an incomparable price!
So friends, please pray for me. Pray that I allow God to truly be Lord over my life. Pray that I depend on Him for every need, including the emotional ones. Pray that I will fervently seek after Jesus Christ, because that is the only way that I will feel like I belong.
In Christ,
Hannah
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